What Can You Do With a Broken Spirit?

So I was reading a devotional this morning.  Psalm 51:17 states “The sacrifice pleasing to God is a broken spirit. God, you will not despise a broken and humbled heart.”  I almost immediately had tears come to my eyes.  I began to remember all the times I struggled before I came to know Christ.  The heartache that I put myself through living for myself, or for everyone else.  All the nights that I came home and cried myself to sleep because I did not matter to the people I wanted to matter to.  These thoughts hit me this morning like a truck. 

On the night that I accepted Christ, I was broken hearted.  I was angry at the world, and yet I still wanted to live for the world, because that was what I knew.  My spirit was broken so bad because there was something missing.  I felt that this God I grew up hearing about could not love me because I spent so much time not loving Him.  As my friend Chris sat and prayed with me, he made it clear that my past was not what God was looking at, but my present, my hurt and my brokenness.  That night, I made my own sacrifice to God.  I gave Him my hurt, my pain, my brokenness, and in turn, God gave me a love that I had never known before. 

I have so many students, friends, and acquaintances who are hurting today.  Some of the people I ran with when I was in school have told me that they are too messed up to be a Christian.  Maybe today, that is where you are.  If you are hurting, know that you are not alone.  Most importantly, you can give God your brokenness and He will be so happy, that He will give you everything in return.  What God wants more than anything is to meet you today where you are and to help you come in to a relationship with Him.

Pastor Derrick